Omg Huge Bitch By Here :L

haallowww

today is my last day of being fat so after this...ill prob binge on jaffa cakes.

ive already eaten a mini tub of ben and jerrys cookie dough.
but i dun care.
tomorrow its changing forever!!
except for the cookie dough, ive only eaten a banana and my mug of green tea.

so i think im ok to binge.

ive cleanned all day today...didnt even get to watch the rugby match in full because i was being a proper cinderella.

then after that i full on gave myself a beauty therapy sesh. :) i fell super clean lol. not tha i ain normally. gor a bit of ocd in the clean department.

my stupid bitch of a friend just annoyed the hell outta me. lets call her...huw. :L
ill start at the beginning. we used to be really close...best friends forever!! blah blah blah.
then cuz my parents are friendly with hers we went on holiday together. about 4 times.

but last year i went on my own with them. no momma or daddio. and that hoilday turned out to be the worst one ive ever had thanks to huw. she was fine in the first week but the second, she just ignored me for no reason and left me out...basically made me want to run a 10000 miles home. i did cry secretly a few times becuz i was so fed up with her. so now, i dont really consider her a "close"friend and more of a slug.
and shes got like a secret life to. of a slut. she enjoys txtin her so called friends boyfriends and is the reason a lot of my friends are single right now. so yes. i dont like her. we still talk...but i reallly would rather talk to someone else. well anyway.
today i moved some of my friends (that i like way more) up in my top 16 on bebo.
then (cuz shes always on msn and bebo...doesnt seem to sleep just lives on her laptop) literally a second after i done it, she was msnin me..."how am i so low then?" "dun like me do you"
NO!!! i felt like saying. but i jus said i felt closer to the other girls. so that insant she moves me out right down to the bottom of hers. because shes so mature.
im not bothered that she moved me but come on. get a life. shes such an outcast i really do hate her.
lol

sorry for the bitchin. but sometimes you just gorra get it out.

this post is prob considerably long so ill go now. hope you guys are all doing well.

loveee you :)

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Hadda Nice Night Tonight

Helllooo Loveliess

well i now own brown hair!
which went successfully for once. normally when i dye my hair something goes wrong...but thankfully not this time :)

i look quite different i do say. for the better?
i sure do hope so.
i reallly need to start putting the tan on, i do look quite pale lol
i just got on the scales and 109 still stares back at me. "/
but in all fairness i havent tried as hard as normal...due to being ill. but i no i say this every week, but this week is going to be different :)

i went bowling tonight with Aaron, his sister and her boyfriend.
it was very nice hadda a really good time. it was a nice change from being stuck inside shivering and sneezing.

oh yes before i forget...Maggie commented on the last post and asked if everyone knows i have ana.
well most people know ive had ana in the past but dont know ive still got it. they think im over it...so therefore im called the 'skinny/anorexic one' out of my friends. i act like i dont mind (because i dont want people thinkin i care) but its really annoying when im not losing and im still a fat fuck. so yes and no is the answer really lol

i hope your allll fab as usual...im off to read your blogs lol

love you all

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Holaa

Helllo my loveliess
i just realised that there are 27 people following this blog (wow thats loadsss)
so i'd like to say a huggeee thank you...
am i really suprised so many people find my life interesting.

anywayss i dunno about any of you, but sometimes i just feel like a change.
so tomorrow ive booked to have my hair dyed dark brown. ive only told my boyfriend.
so monday in school everyone will be like 'omg man! is that you' but i think i really need to shake things up a bit. i feel like im stuck in a rut.

so im also planning to go shopping for new make-up, tan + false nails so i don't look so boring.
i want people to look at me and be like wow.
i wanna be known as the 'super sexy skinny girl' not just 'anorexic girl'
cuz rite now, im known as Ana and thats pretty boring.

today i had a goodish day...
a ate porridge a muller light yoghurts and 2 90 special k bars...oooh and a tangerine.
unfortuntely my boyfriend forced a slice of pizza down me.
my mother keeps going on that im not going to get better if i dont start eating properly.
but to me, shes the one whos not eating properly
cooked breakfast twice in a row? please thats just disgusting!
she bought me new green tea today tho...so shes in my good books :)

also, i no this is really random but does anyone notice how most of the girls on my super sweet sixteen are totally in love with themselves even if their absoutely buzzin?
itss likee jeezz louise look in a mirror!!

sorry for that lol

hope your all well anywayss

lovee you

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Periods + Boy Troubles

Still ill.
but to make matters worsee...its the unfortunate time of the month for me.
(well im quite happy i came on cuz i was starting to think i was pregnant...i havent had a period for AGESSS)

anyway im supposed to be having school tomorrow. but fuck it its a friday there's no point.

i'll just stay home, and get all my homework/coursework/everything else sorted.
soundss gooddd to me.

i didnt eat much today...
1 muller light yoghurt 86(i think) cals
and 2 90 cal special k bars. (ooooh i love em)

my big bro got into the raf today.
im really happy for him. but at the same time i no im going to miss him.
there's only one year (11 months really) between us and we've got the same sence of humour so we get on really well. so i guess im going to miss him more than i thought. "/

Aaron was doing my head in today.
going on and on and on and on about skiing.
an to piss me off further...
all these "plastic"girls are going that are a year younger than him
(FYI me an my group of friends are considered plastic, but please dont take that into account...im nothing like that...i just care about my appearance so therefore in my school, im considered plastic)
anywho...i no he's got a soft spot for a few of them even tho he wont admitt it.
so im on edge. i dont no what to do with myself. "/

hmmm. oh well im off to better my websitee...(if you ain looked at it yet, what wrong with you??!! lol)

lovee you all buttyss :)

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Ill

Heey guyss

i wokee up about 12:15 today "/ (still no school + none tomorrow either!! hehe)
and my throat was really hurting.
but i went out anyway.
i walked over to the village where my boyfriend and most of my friends live (to enjoy the snow once again)
my feet where soaking cuz i wore uggs lol
but yesterday when i wore them, my feet were fine :S

anyway throughout the day my health deterioated and now im in bed with a terrible sore throat and headache :(

andd i also found out that my boyfriend is leaving on valetines day to go skiing with his school. :(
i was really hoping on havin a romantic meal (i was going to fast the week before so i could eat...) somewhere nice followed by sexual sex.
im so upset.

i hope he doesnt leave me for some austrian girl.

thankfully due to my ill health, my eating habbits have been great.
ive only had a bottle of fizzy water and some sugar free throat sweets.

hopppe your all feeling better than me.

stay skinnnnny

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My Website

Havent Binged!
yet anywayss...im off out to enjoy the snow with my friends in a bit...

in my atempt not to binge i created a pro-ana site. look at it and sign the guestbook, if you please...ill be ever so greatful :)

http://underneaththeclothes.webs.com/

lovee you allllllll

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Snow Day!

Its now 10:44 on a monday morning, and im not in science :)
yess its snowing and like a 4 year old im over the moon haha
its not even that heavy yet, but its supposed to get really bad (wwwoooop)
and i havent got any school tomorrow either.
unless gobal warming takes place over night.

id like to thank everyone who commented on my last post, your comments were lovely :)

im worried now tho that im going to binge today, as theres nothing really to stop me.
my boyfriend's school (as far as i no) is not closed so i cant go somewhere with him to take my mind off food.
he doesnt like to take his phone to school (werido)

i should really take this opportunity to finish my music compostition, but i cant be fucked.
ive only got like 13 or 14 weeks to my gcses.
grrrr. ill prob end up doing it. it will take my mind off binging i supposee...

andd my foot is still bad so i cant hop on the x trainner.

i dont think the school closing was such a good idea after all....

oh well.
ill prob leave another post after (either to say how proud of myself i am for not binging or to tell you how much shit i ate.)

muchh love my ana loveeliess :)

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