Omg ive been so emtional today.
so much that its scary.
as i write this tears are coming down.
i thought it was jus my period abou to start to begin with, but now i ain so sure. i've never been like this before.
it started off me going up my dads. i went into my old room which i hardly ever sleep in anymore, and started crying. i don't know why.
then when i came back to my mothers, my boyfriend came over. we we're watchin, Ps i love you (the wrong choice of film as i hate the thought of my boyfriend dyin, and this reminds me of all the nightmares i have of him dying...but suprisingly hes the one who wanted to watch it lmao) and as you do in a chick flick i was crying at the sad parts. I didnt really think anything of tha, as i would have normally.
But then we stopped it to go out the kichen an i jammed my finger in the cupboard door. i said oww...then found myself in tears. But i wernt crying cuz of tha, but cuz i didnt wan my boyfriend to die :S.
he was understanding an jus hugged me. i really didnt want to watch the rest of the film, but i did.
i dont no wats wrong with me. ive only eaten liquids today, could that have triggered it?
but i do think i have probelms with my dreams. i always dream that people i love die, and recently its always my boyfriend. i hate it. i find myself waking up crying all the time.
i wish it would stop.
well im going to sleep now. hopefully i wont dream of him dying again. god im so pathetic.